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A Reluctant Tenderness: Asperger’s Fear of Love
June 21, 2012 It is the first heat wave of the summer. For me, that means high anxiety bordering on panic. Not terribly together to begin with, I become totally undone in the heat. Nuzzling up to my...
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The Eyes to Eternity: Two Aspies in Love Surpass Eye Contact Fears
At age 35 I found someone who was more afraid of closeness than I was. I understood him almost from day one. This understanding came out of years of therapy that followed my breakdown at age 28....
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Asperger’s Romance, a Feature News Item– Inspiring for all Aspies and Auties
(Click http://www.independentauthornetwork.com/ellen-stockdale-wolfe.html for information on, and to purchase my Bipolar/Asperger’s memoir.) Filed under: Asperger's & Autism, Asperger's and Love...
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Mist of Memory
Thanksgiving has come and gone, leaving behind a tumultuous mix of unearthed feelings and memories. Memories of family gatherings meld in my mind with a mixed sense of loss and relief. I miss my Mom...
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Stars in the Eyes
When I was a little girl of seven, I swallowed the “Prince Charming” myth whole. I cried watching the movie Sleeping Beauty, because I wanted my own prince to come. Then adolescence happened and I...
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Now or Never
Fri., October 28, 1977 I hardly sleep at all. Ever since yesterday I am totally confused. I am no longer sure that Danielle is interested. Danielle talks again to the department head. She says...
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At the Brink
This excerpt from Chapter 2 of my Biolar/Asperger’s memoir of finding love shows the beginnings of a psychotic breakdown. I feel the electric light glowering at me. I look around the room in my...
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Two Lips of Forever Love
He didn’t “get it, the “loss thing,” when my aunt died mid-April, and I lost my second mother. Didn’t “get it” when I lost my first. This was not the only time he was lost in oblivion and puzzled by...
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Eyes to Eternity
At age 35 I found someone who was more afraid of closeness than I was. I understood him almost from day one. This understanding came out of years of therapy that followed my breakdown at age 28....
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Supposed Indifference in Asperger’s
I climbed down from the tangled branches of my thoughts to greet you but it was too late you were gone. Don’t give up on me I love you can’t you see but there is such difficulty all because I am...
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Rapid Cycling
Patterns of the microcosm echoed in the macrocosm vibrating thoughts no meditation lots of frustration can’t calm down do the Hong Sau Yogananda method the only hope in this mind doing 120 mph in a 35...
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Afraid of Love
Bipolar 1, OCD, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. These were the labels awarded me when a major breakdown at age 28 literally catapulted me into therapy. Later came yet another label, Asperger’s...
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Review of Eye-locks and Other Fearsome Things: Learning to Love as a Bipolar...
stockdalewolfe:Kitt O’Malley over at Kittomalley.com, so generously reviewed my book on being Bipolar and Aspie and the fight for sanity and love, in a post on her blog. Kitt, a psychotherapist and...
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Messages from God
Sue at Silent Eye recently posted a discussion of bibliomancy on her blog… https://thesilenteye.co.uk/2017/06/04/divination-by-the-book/ As a former librarian, I had an experience of bibliomancy with...
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Divine Romance
Our third decade together. And the love grows deeper against a background of eventual, inevitable loss. A loss more unimaginable than one’s own demise. I look deeply into your eyes, my eyes linger,...
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Eyes to Eternity
Forgive me for reblogging this. I have zero creativity these days, fear of the pandemic and all, but I still have the feelings expressed here, if anything, even more intensely now in a marriage that is...
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Eye-Locks, Namaste and God
Namaste! Namaskar! Namaskaram! The Hindu greeting: “I bow to the God in you.” I love this form of greeting– so much better than a handshake. Christians believe God dwells within our souls. Perhaps...
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